A Poem.....for a change :)

got this very beautiful mail....couldnt resist puttin it up :)

ah....the good ol' days

a new beggining????

"there is nothing like goin bak to a place after a long time and see how u've changed"
-unknown


the coconut trees whos leaves i could touch by standing on the terrace.....are unreachable, the empty site i spent playing countless afternoons in the scorching heats....seems too far now, the garage door which used to have a chalked outline of 3 stumps permanently on it.....no longer invites me to play, "kenchi" ,the brown neighbourhood dog might still wag its tail in his grave though :)

getting bak to a "house" after a period of 10 yrs and being able to call it "home" is something i am facing for the 1st time now. the small kid in me still laughs at the times and the memories associated with the house. the neighbours whom i used to play with, the temple i used to go with my mom, the first ever shop i had been to get everyday stuff for my mom in the kitchen, the day i had lost my face in front of the shopkeeper for my stupidy.......everything is intact, all the memories, all the places.......

looking bak the 10 yrs, from a kid who left the house in the 8th std to go to a boarding school, to a guy who works in a s/w company, i have indeed come a long way. a long way indeed :)

??????

yes... a BIG ? is wat is in my mind rite now...!!!!

as i sit in my office on a saturday mornin listen to some music, i wonder.....i wonder if this is wat i've always wanted.......

well, it feels weird to write this blog, coz i've just written abt the other side of the story in my previous post.....wat contrasts we get to see.......!!!!!!!

well, i agree tat being engaged in some sort of work is wat i've always wanted, but i never knew wat could be the limit i can stretch myself....being an aquarian, i guess i tend to get bored of the monotony of life very easily.....i was bored of sitting idle earlier, now i am bored of working non stop :)

wats the fun in life if i dont get to live it....???? well, as i ponder abt this, i wonder..........

i've come to realize tat change is the only thing constant in our lives....!!!! we just have to learn to cope up with the change well. coz at the end of the day, i truly believe tat we live the life we make out of the opportunities we get.....!!!!

well, this post could just be the stressbuster i need......or maybe not.....!!!! i really dunno.....
i m damn CoNfUsEd.......abt everything........again....!!!!

a 180 degree flip...!!!!

yes..!!
it has finally happened....!!!
life, from a slow paced, boreing, monotonous routine has changed for the good....!! i just hope it stays on like this for a loooong time.

one fine morning when i entered the lift of sona towers, the apprehensive me was totally lost and reluctant to get out of the shell. but now, just a few weeks later, its all changed....and changed for the good i must say...!!!
life is a journey and we get a lot of things to learn abt.....each and every day....!!! this has never been more evident to me than the past few weeks.....

so many kind of ppl, so many kinds of minds, so many kinds of technologies, so many mistakes, so many lines of code, so many mugs of coffee, so many classes, so many segmentation faults...!!!!
everything has a thing to teach, if we look out for it ;)

well, to end it all.....a passing thought...

if at all we knew the source code of our lives, debugging it would've been a much simpler task ...!!!!

just hope we dont get segmentation faults on the way :p

Life at its simplest best.......

wat can be better than a few days without us botherin abt anything??? a few quiet days all by yrself, and tat too for a person like me who loves his space arnd..!!!! and tat contemplative mood to enhance the thinkin process,
a few days to spend with the ppl who care for u unconditionally??? a few days to listen to yr grandpa's story of his childhood??? an absolute new learnin experience with every step u take, an opportunity to view another side of yrself, most of all, an opportunity to prove yrself, to see the real U........and the feelin of being sucked into oblivion, at times, it can be good too.....!!!!

a sneak preview into the facts now so conveniently forgotten, a feeling of pride mixed with the bad feeling of neglecting stuff, the realization tat ignorance is not always a bliss prompting me to look out for knowledge.....lifes good....!!!!!

to get a feelin of goin tat one step further into realizing the true self, a self which has a lifestyle of its own, a mind and a thinkin totally independent of yr thoughts.......a lil confused, a lil freaky, a lil empathy towards yr own self, a total emotional roller-coaster ride...!!!!

yes......this is life at its simplest best.....getting the fundamentals rite could be a thrilling and a totally cOnFuSiNg eXperience :)

Independence....?????

wat does it really mean??? why do we crave for tat??? are we really gettin it??? and if we are, are we doin our part to maintain it???? but mainly, do we deserve it??

all these questions popped up in my mind when i was watchin a documentry on Gandhiji. He truly is becomin an inspiration for me these days... like the millions of others, i too used to hate his principles and his actions. i too did critisize them and did end up arguin with some of my friends abt his methodologies and their effectiveness.

I am so happy tat i was wrong then. if not for his non violence, we wouldn't have got our independence so soon......

i was overwhelmed by the sheer power this small, puny old guy with a staff in hand, hardly any clothes on, had over the masses. more abt Gandhi when i get the mood to write abt him, although it'll be like admiring the depth of the ocean by lookin at the surface.

a few quotes i'd like to share....

"jesus showed us the way of love, and Gandhi taught us the way to do it" - Martin Luther King

"an eye for an eye will only leave the whole world blind" - M K Gandhi

He had once said tat he'll consider himself a true Mahatma if in a circumstance where he were to be assassinated, he'd accept the bullets happily and die with the name of God on his lips...we all know how he was killed, he was indeed a ture MAHATMA...!!!

anyways....i wanted to blog abt us being "independent", or the illusion tat we are.
does the feelin of independence restrict itself only to the political power of the country or does it have a lil more depth to it??? doesnt it have anything to do with wat we have to deal with ourselves????
does being independent have any relevence to our lives not being controlled by our emotions and instead, we controllin them???
does growin up as an independent person imbibe in us a sense of responsibility or does it just reduce the compassion and love we have towards the fellow ppl????? does a sense of independence (in watever way) unconsciously make our ego grow out of proportions????

so many questions, so little knowledge to answer them.....
me wonders if i can ever get an answer to some of my rantings....
a part of me quietly stays away from this and tells me to cut the crap and get a life, a part of me tells me to go on and look out for an answer, and a small part of me laughs away to glory....coz i am sure it know all the answers and wants me to find them out myself......

cOnFuSiNg....??? I dont think so....!!!!!!

Missing the obvious????

Holmes and Watson are on a camping holiday. One starlit night, they are lying in their sleeping backs-seperate ones of course, nothing unusual about Holmes and Watson-when Holmes speaks.

"Watson, tell me. When you observe the heavens on a night such as this, what do you deduce?"

Watson, keen to impress his brainy chum, ponders.

"Well, Holmes", he begins, firstly, I observe the vastness of the heavens, and I realise that we are but a microscopic speck in the infinite cosmos. Then, that out there among the countless stars, planets and galaxies, there might even be other life forms, maybe even someone like me. Then, that among the apparent chaos of the universe, I see nevertheless order, and that order must have come from a Being who is responsible for all creation-from the humblest microbe to the mightiest supernova. But then, I deduce that that Supreme Being created you, and me, and among all of this cosmic mahem, He knows me and loves me."

"Hmm. Not bad, Watson, not bad", muses Holmes.

A pause.

"Well, Holmes, well? What, then, do you deduce?"

"Only this, Watson. Some b*****d has stolen our tent."


well...thinkin abt it...lifes like this....!!!
when will we ever learn to think simple terms??????!!!! sometimes in our life we do come across such situations and become watsons rather than holmes.....i yearn to think simple....but will i be able to???? i wonder...