23.7.06

everyday is a new one....!!!!

SUN RISE

Every morning in africa,when the sun rises,a deer awakens, knowing it has to outrun the fastest lion or be hunted to death...........

Every morning in africa,when the sun rises,a lion awakens, knowing that it has to outrun the slowest deer or be starved to death...........


It doesn't matter whether you are a deer or a lion ,when the sun rises better be running at your best


YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE !!!

TIME IS RUNNING OUT,WAKE UP BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE..................................

P.S I dint have the patience to edit this post....copy pasted from another blog just coz it makes so much of sense to me :)

18.7.06

for a reason.....

"everything happens for a reason" screamed Limp Bizket thro my speakers this morning when i realised something. i wonder why i had not thougt abt it or why nobody had told me it was so....

i've started to believe tat everybody in this world is here for a reason. just think abt it, if not for the morning milkman, yr mom would've made u get up and go to the end of the road to get it, if not for the person who made yr mosquito coil, u would've got chikenguniya by now :p

hehehe.....ok on a more serious note, have u ever wondered wat life would have been with out the ppl whom u are surrounded with...??? one might argue tellin tat if not them, then some others would've been there....i too wondered, but my belief of life being an illusion took over my thinking and i began to wonder even more at the marvels and the intricacy of life...!!!
anyways, i began to realise tat one is destined to be the way he is, and be surounded by the same ppl who influence his behaviour and thoughts in the same manner they are doin now :D think abt it....it'll make sense.

further pondering abt this is makin the whole picture more and more clear in front of my eyes.....and i've begun to realise tat each of this person who is here for a reason, who has or will influence us in our life, has something or the other to teach us. making us a better or a worse person in the process. the converse, i guess is true too....do we even realise how many ppl we have influenced in our lives??? if it has been for the better of the person, then we must be proud of ourselves, but how true are we to ourselves abt this???
if not for tat person, who would've taught me to walk???..... if not for tat person, who would've thought me to face life as it comes???...... if not for tat person, who'd have thought me to give and take respect???....if not for tat person, who'd have taught me not to take ppl for granted???....if not for tat person, who'd have taught me not to take things at the face value???...if not for tat person, who would've made me realise i wasnt a loser???....if not for tat person who would've taught me how to care???....if not for tat person,i'd still be lying!!!!

i've blabbered crap here???? think abt it....it makes a LOT of sense...!!!!

30.6.06

bored and jobless....

Your Personality Profile

You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth.
While you may not be a total hippie...
You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around.

You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure.
However, you do put some thought behind all your actions.
Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!


hmmm.....i wonder....

28.6.06

when i was in vidyashala....

ok this is a total rip off from an article in our school's bi-annual magazine. i got totally nostalgic when i read this and knew tat i had to store this stuff, coz i generally misplace the magazine :p
i havent changed much of the article, eventhough this was written by a senior (1979-82) who studied there much before i was born, the experience remains the same.....

i so miss my school days.....

Like everybody's life, mine too had its eventful days when i was a school boy. in RamakrishnaVidyashala, my school.
a school with a reputation of being one of the best in the country. the discipline, the enphasis on values, on spirituality, on the rounding of one's personality, the multifarious games,physical exercises, swimming, the debates, the bonhomie, lip-smacking food and the very joy of living together with friends on a 69 acre campus tat loioked likde one large, beautifully crafted carpet of green!
those were the days when we were growin up. when the body and the mind were slowly taking shape. we had out boyish impishness, out youthful folibles.
the chanting of the prayers. in the hall tat evoked such divine piety. to th ethrob of the tabala ( played beautifully by kappe) and the mellow melody of the harmonium. some of us once in a while, drifting into a bit of a slumberback arched and the body fallinf forwards, completely out of our control.and then the sudden jolting of the conscience resulting in hte regaining of the conscious!
those night studiy sessions. done in pir drop silence! night study supervisors who walked up and down like sentinels guarding the ford! their slow, steady, deliberate walk a reminder of their omniscience in the stillness ot the night! "eeeeh, stand up, i say" !
those giggles and the winks, abt some suddenly remembered hilarity! those occasions when some of us stood up and said we were feelin a lil drowsy, just a few mins into the study hour! the splashing of the water on the face. the serious look on the faces of the studious ppl through the window. for having been disturbed bu the sound of water! all this was great fun.
a flash of the ochre in the midst of the study, a faint glimpse of the Swamiji walking along the corridor with the briskness and the purposefulness of a man in command. yhr immidiate straightening of out bent backs, the repositioning or the obooks to portray sincearity of intent and then the reverting of the slightly more relaxed posture after his exit.
sometimes a shrill screams emanating from the distance away from our class. a sure indicator of some elder's outburst against some sloffy boy's behaviour during that precious hour.
and then the diary writing. for five mins. from 8 to 8:05 pm!
we had our inner feelings. tat we couldnt really describe. we missed describe. we missed home. and perhaps our childhood mates with whome we grew up before joining boarding school. and then, we reminded ourselves tat we had to get on in life. make new friends, seek more experiences, and become better equipped to handle the world. as our teachers always told us in the class.
we had our worries. or wantin to do well in class. of winning the hockey match the next day, of writing home and wanting to tell amma tat we loved her! a life of myrad thoughts. sometimes all jumbled up, sometimes having a pattern.

i am gonna have a smile tonight when i sleep......remembering all the good times i've had in my school....getting nostalgic, feels good :)

17.6.06

Life Moves On....

well....thats the hardcore reality of life rite??? it just moves on...!!!!

i am really out of words rite now. doesnt it feel bad when u have to let go of a person for the only reason tat he/she has his/her own life to live???? yeah i know...i am sounding crazy by tellin tat coz at the end of the day, i too would like to move on in life.....and not hang on to my past.

its just tat that wonderful college life of mine will never be back. i am contemplating on the fact tat i am lookin at rite now....somewhere close to 15 ppl atleast had become so close to me in those awesome 4 yrs of my life...when i am lookin bak now, i am hit hard on the face by the fact tat they are all gonna go difft ways....searchin for their own goals in life....and the worst part it all...i might never be able to meet a few of them, even to recollect those amazing moments we had spent together let alone have a good time again...!!!!

aaargh...!!! this is comin out of pure frustration and helplessness i am facing...!!! i know its the reality but am just not able to accept the fact....!!!!

well the saying "the value of the individual is known when the person isnt arnd" is true i guess...i am actually missing some of my friends already even though they are just a phone call away...!!!

whos goin to be the butt of my jokes???....whos gonna arrange night out parties in his house???....whos gonna hit stupid pjs and laugh at them if none of his friends laugh????....whos gonna get pissed for all stupid reasons???...whos gonna send me cute gnite msgs???? whos hair clips am i gonna flick???...whos gonna laugh at my stupid outburts of wierd dance steps???? whos gonna flirt arnd just for the heck of it??? whos gonna give me gyaan on patafying females???...whos gonna make a big fuss out of every little thing??? who.....????

man...!!! i am so gonna miss these beautiful moments in my life.....

yes ppl...!!! u guys mean a lot to me....if u are readin this post, and u can relate to any of my stupid rattlings above, then u are one of the many ppl i am gonna miss for a looooong time to come.

i do really hope tat the bond of friendship i've developed with each of my friend remains the same for the rest of our lives.....

but just as i think abt it...the hard reality hits me again, and i contemplate.....coz i know the truth...life is an illusion and no matter how much i want...i cannot control it...!!!!

life just moves on...!!!!

22.5.06

hmmmm......

ever cursed yrself for yr own stupidity???? ever repented yr stupid act after u actually did it???

well....tats just the reason why i am blogging today...!!!

i just dunno wat made me take a break from readin Network Security and get out of the house.....!!! oh ya...i remember i wanted to eat chips...!!! :|

anyways....after makin sure my sis doesnt need anything else, i thought i'll pamper myself with a yeLneeru for the only reason tat i (claim) to be studyin a lot these days.... but as luck would have it....i didnt find my wallet when i got down from my bike at the shop. my 1st reaction...." Oh NO...!!!! NOT AGAIN....!!!!!"

yes...this isnt the first time i am losing my wallet.....had lost it the exact same way last time too...riding full speed on the bike, bumpy roads, big wallet, and a loose pocket.....why wouldnt i lose it??? i guess it just fell off from my pocket on one of the bumps :(

roamed arnd the whole section of the road arnd 3 times, but in vain :(

finally i decided tat i was the biggest loser on this planet and came home, to get my sis's great advice abt goin and lookin on the road....the same road where atleast a hundred ppl would have walked since tat time......i gave up and went to have a bath....

i guess this was the thing tat changed my luck :p

as soon as i sat down, disgusted at myself, cursing my luck, my craving for chips , everything else i could think of.....the phone rang :D trust me....i somehow knew this would be it....i woeld get my wallet back...!!!

a nice elderly gentleman was on the other side....
i had never felt so relieved in my life....!!! the moment he told tat he had my wallet and asked me to come go to his place to collect it...i was thanking my stars left and right :P

anyways....its coz of ppl like these tat life is still enjoiable....!!! if it wasnt for his nice gesture and great ethics he showed today, i'd have lost some cash, my DL, and would have got a hell lot of royal blastings at home.....

David was his name.....but i could see the jesus in him.....:)

if at all everyone could do such a small deed everyday.....wat better a place will this earth be???!!!

whoever found my 1st wallet should read this blog :p

11.5.06

loooong time, no blog

yeah.....life has been hectic for a while now....will blog abt it when i am a lil free and get bored...
in the meanwhile, i got this nice mail....one of the best i can say, coz i seem to get connected to it instantly....read on and find out if u are goin thro the same Quarter Life Crisis :)

Being a twenty something....

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as cOnFuSeD as you.

You look at what ur studying or ur job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone! but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you are scared just to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...

Its called "Quarter-life Crisis." nothing is constant......except change.
What is life without a few risks? Keep playing the game

:)