22.5.06

hmmmm......

ever cursed yrself for yr own stupidity???? ever repented yr stupid act after u actually did it???

well....tats just the reason why i am blogging today...!!!

i just dunno wat made me take a break from readin Network Security and get out of the house.....!!! oh ya...i remember i wanted to eat chips...!!! :|

anyways....after makin sure my sis doesnt need anything else, i thought i'll pamper myself with a yeLneeru for the only reason tat i (claim) to be studyin a lot these days.... but as luck would have it....i didnt find my wallet when i got down from my bike at the shop. my 1st reaction...." Oh NO...!!!! NOT AGAIN....!!!!!"

yes...this isnt the first time i am losing my wallet.....had lost it the exact same way last time too...riding full speed on the bike, bumpy roads, big wallet, and a loose pocket.....why wouldnt i lose it??? i guess it just fell off from my pocket on one of the bumps :(

roamed arnd the whole section of the road arnd 3 times, but in vain :(

finally i decided tat i was the biggest loser on this planet and came home, to get my sis's great advice abt goin and lookin on the road....the same road where atleast a hundred ppl would have walked since tat time......i gave up and went to have a bath....

i guess this was the thing tat changed my luck :p

as soon as i sat down, disgusted at myself, cursing my luck, my craving for chips , everything else i could think of.....the phone rang :D trust me....i somehow knew this would be it....i woeld get my wallet back...!!!

a nice elderly gentleman was on the other side....
i had never felt so relieved in my life....!!! the moment he told tat he had my wallet and asked me to come go to his place to collect it...i was thanking my stars left and right :P

anyways....its coz of ppl like these tat life is still enjoiable....!!! if it wasnt for his nice gesture and great ethics he showed today, i'd have lost some cash, my DL, and would have got a hell lot of royal blastings at home.....

David was his name.....but i could see the jesus in him.....:)

if at all everyone could do such a small deed everyday.....wat better a place will this earth be???!!!

whoever found my 1st wallet should read this blog :p

11.5.06

loooong time, no blog

yeah.....life has been hectic for a while now....will blog abt it when i am a lil free and get bored...
in the meanwhile, i got this nice mail....one of the best i can say, coz i seem to get connected to it instantly....read on and find out if u are goin thro the same Quarter Life Crisis :)

Being a twenty something....

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as cOnFuSeD as you.

You look at what ur studying or ur job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone! but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you are scared just to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...

Its called "Quarter-life Crisis." nothing is constant......except change.
What is life without a few risks? Keep playing the game

:)